Declaration

SO I think that some people misunderstood where that last note was coming from. I did however find out that I have some of the most amazing and supportive friends on the planet and so I want to say thank you to those people! But I do want to clarify just what that note was about.
I know I said a lot, and maybe it was kinda emo but whatever. I just really needed to vent! Usually when I need to think I just start writing and then things become clear, I felt this one I was supposed to do in public. I wouldn't say that I am different to different people, in fact I think I am quite transparent for the most part, at least I’m trying to be. But I was tired of who I was, or more the road that I was walking down, and I felt that it would be easier to change if those closest to me..aka…all my friends on facebook :)…..knew what I was going through and why I was doing what I was doing.
But mainly, last night was more of a Declaration of Dependence. A light went on last night where things cleared up for me and I saw a glimpse of where I was supposed to be headed. And so I stated my grievances, made my terms, and set forward to do what I have been called to do! It wasn’t a poor me letter, it was a rejoice with me because who I am hates who I’ve been and it is time to go onward and upward! It is now time for me to start living! And not just getting by but living life to the fullest. I once read, “The Glory of God, is man FULLY alive!” and that is my goal. To glorify God in the way we have all been called. To assess our lives and see are we truly living? Are we living in the freedoms that God has promised us? Freedom from sin, freedom from guilt, freedom from worry!!! We are all in different places in our lives and so I don’t claim to know where everyone stands, but believe me there is so much more to life than what we are living! I find day by day God wants to show me more how I can live. He said, “I have come that you may have life more abundantly!” And that’s what I realized last night. And so it’s a party! Una fiesta! I am so happy at where I am in my life and I am so happy with where I am going! I don’t really know where I am going, and for those of you who were wondering no I am not dropping out of school and becoming a monk. Although those Tibetan monks are pretty sweet!!! But I have been called to be a student in Ireland right now and that’s what I am going to do! To the best of my ability! And I know I am still going to sleep through my Monday lab at nine occasionally or forget a homework assignment, but I am ok with that. Because I am working on becoming who I am supposed to be, and I’m not perfect yet!