Useless

I am in full time ministry right now. And it is daunting! I have been called to do a great work and I have no clue what I am supposed to do. No you may be saying, “Ben your not a pastor or anything right?” And no I’m not a pastor or a worship leader; in fact I skipped church this morning. But there is not one person God hasn’t called into the ministry. He said, “Go into all the world and preach the good news!” Well that’s where I am…I am in the world, all different parts and I am doing my best to share Gods love. But have you ever just felt like your ministry was at a standstill.. Like how can I be doing Gods work when nothing is getting done! Heck I didn’t even go to church this morning! (I feel real guilty that’s why I keep bringing it up!) How am I supposed to win souls when I have nothing to work off of! Well I was thinking about that and I wrote this….

Lord what would you have of me? I know I am made for more but what? With everything you’ve given me I feel like I am squandering it all away! And that breaks my heart, cause I know it breaks yours! SO WHAT WOULD YOU HAVE ME DO???......
(This is when I just writing and started listening! It’s amazing what you hear when you shut up! Then He spoke this word to me…)

God what can I do? Nothing! I’m amazed at how many times I come to that conclusion?! As if I’ve never heard it before! All I have to give is everything that I am. I’m not much BUT with God I can do anything! God isn’t going to say, “Here are your orders, do em!” That isn’t the God I serve. It’s not like he is the task master and he is just using use to accomplish something. He wants us to be part of it. He wants us to see Him at work through us.

It would be like God telling me, “Ben, I want you to build a skyscraper!” And I would say, “OK great…HOW?” And then God would say, “Well you didn’t want to know the how, you wanted to know what!”

So then what? I go start building a skyscraper on my own and screw it up. Why? Because I have not been equipped with the training needed to build skyscrapers. It would be unstable, faulty, and incomplete. And at the end I would look at God and say, “There! My life is complete! I have done what you ask.” But did I? The skyscraper would not be the building God intended me to build. It would be only what my hands could accomplish. Ok enough with the metaphor…

I know God has a plan for my life. If he were to tell me what it Is, I know I would go try it on my own, and in the end not be anywhere near what God had in mind for me. And God’s idea of blessing his children is so much better!

The Funny thing is, God doesn’t want to hold anything back from us. It’s not like he’s not going to show us the next step. But we need to ask him. Asking every Sunday morning doesn’t work! It takes daily walking with him discovering who he is for us to discover who we should be!

So for those who feel lost, or like they aren’t being effective in ministry; take heart, God is with you every step of the way! Just keep pressing in to him. Daily look to him and remember the tough times we go through are how God equips us to do what he has called us to do.

In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight. Proverbs 3:6